It’s Bedtime Continued

Well, it looks like we are back to co-sleeping for now.

I tried(ish), I really did (not really).

I started out very determined. Then with each tear that determination waned. That and I was really tired and just wanted to go to bed. So my husband and I discussed it and decided since the poor kid has had his schedule wrecked since May due to us house hunting, buying a house, moving, going on our trip, and then getting our other house ready to sell maybe we’ll hold off on the breaking him of co-sleeping. Honestly, it was for my peace of mind as well as the baby’s.

Though I was glad to go on vacation I was also stressed about leaving our little man and then to get back and have to jump right back into house stuff has been stressful as well. Since about the middle of May I feel like we have not had any down time. Every day its something else and at the moment, there doesn’t seem to be any end in sight. Even Father’s Day isn’t going to be a break for my poor hubby. I was hoping to get up, make him breakfast, take him out to a nice lunch, and then probably do something simple at home. Just a nice easy day. Instead because it’s the only chance we have, we are going to have to go out to our other house and do yard work. I’d like to say I’ll go do it for him but after trying to get the entire house up on the market while he was gone to drill.. I’m out of steam. I need to recharge but like I said, no end in sight. At least not at the moment.

Back to the co-sleeping plan though. For now we’re are nursing to sleep and just trying to get on a normal schedule. It’s starting to look like he’s waking up around 8AM, with about a 40min-hour nap every couple of hours until about 5:30PM. Once he wakes up from his afternoon nap he’s up until bedtime at 9PM. So around three one hour naps a day. We haven’t quite got them down with being at the same time but we are getting close.

This is what works for us right now. We decided in a month we’ll reevaluate and if we feel like we need to.. we’ll try something new. For now though, we just want him on a regular and predictable schedule. Which is fine with me, I’ll take keeping my snuggle buddy for as long as I can. At least.. right now.


The Hell That is Bedtime.


Naptime too but it didn’t fit into the title as well.

Well, my husband and I went on our wonderful trip to Mexico and our poor parents got to deal with our co-sleeping, comfort nursing 6 month old who suddenly found himself without his favorite pacifier. Me. They are rockstars and I love them, especially my mother-in-law who set up with him two nights in a row.

So when we got back we discovered that suddenly we could rock him to sleep, albeit, with some crying and then lay him in his crib and by some miracle he would sleep for a couple of hours. What was this magic?! Unfortunately, I undid their hard work by nursing my little angel to sleep once or twice and suddenly he was not wanting to sleep for a couple hours in his crib anymore.. it was back to needing to be nursed or at least have someone nearby. Thus begins my dilemma of how to get him to sleep without “crying it out”.

All I can think of when he is crying alone in his crib is that he is laying in there by himself and freaking out wondering where his mom is and why he is alone. Am I a sucker? Maybe. Am I going to apologize for how I feel as a mother? No. Even when my own mother laughed at me when I said that I would not let him cry it out, when I explained to her my plan. I. Will. Not. Feel. Bad. I want all mom’s and dad’s to repeat after me, I will not feel bad for worrying about my child. Ever. Now, that being said I do hope that when it comes to my little boy becoming a toddler I can hold back and let him get his bumps and bruises but with the being scared thing, I can’t be okay with thinking my kiddo is scared because I hate being scared and I won’t do that to him.

Back on track though, “sleep training” plan. It will most likely be in between crying it out and whatever is not CIO method because my hubby and I talked about it and even Mr. Tough Guy won’t let him cry it out. I asked, I offered to let him do bedtime/naptime for three days to “cry it out”. He said nope, he can’t do it either.

So we plan on at night giving him his bath, nursing, reading a book, singing him a lullaby, and then putting him down in his crib. We’ll lay him on his back and step away from the crib. If he fusses, let him fuss,  if he cries a little, then I’ll let him do that. If he cries a little more I’m going to pick him up and soothe him before it becomes THAT cry. You know, the one where they are screaming-crying. The one where it takes 30 minutes to soothe them afterwards. Yea, I don’t want to get anywhere NEAR that cry.

That’s the plan at least. Plans change, evolve, get modified and adapt to better usage so we’ll see how it goes.


First go so far has not been good. We decided since he is used to sleeping with us we would try to not change too much at once and put him to sleep in our bed. We did our bedtime routine, laid him on the bed and he rolled himself over so we patted his back and then the crying started. Then THE crying started and we picked him up too late. So 45 minutes later here I type. It took both of us alternating singing and walking with him as well as me nursing him for him to calm down and go to sleep. We did not let him get drowsy and then put him down. I stood at the side of the bed and sang until he fell asleep on my shoulder. I eased down on my bed and sang for a minute longer. Then I slid him off me and laid him down. Round 1 goes to baby.

P.S. For anyone reading this I do know all the baby rules. I do know all the sleep-training methods. I read. I research. I read some more. I’m doing what feels right to me as a mom and a parent. Don’t judge me and I won’t judge you. I very much back the “to each his own” motto.



Time to Myself? Ha.

I’ve been hard-pressed lately to get any time to myself. One might think, hey you’re a stay at home mom. Certainly you have plenty of time to yourself. Ah ha, I would say back, you’d think so wouldn’t you? Well you are so very wrong.

For one thing every moment that I’m with my child if I’m not directly interacting with him he is just on the edges of my mind. He might be sitting in his bouncer but I’m counting the seconds until he’s had enough and will start wailing or thinking about how last time he ate was so many hours ago and he’ll need to eat again soon. Or the dogs are in there with him and he just got real quiet.. they’re probably licking the crap out of his face and he’s silently loving every second.

Even when he naps he has most likely fallen  asleep on me so I’m stuck wherever that was unless I want to risk waking him up only to have to try to get him back to sleep again. And some days, that nap is the only quiet time I’ve had all day. Especially right now because he’s learned to make a high pitched screech noise that he must think is a proper tool for communicating. I have not found a way to communicate to him that this in fact is NOT a proper communication tool. So I’ll let him nap on me trying not to move too much and wondering why I left my phone, remote, candy bar, laptop, water bottle, etc so far out of reach.

Then once he wakes up he wants to talk (ie: screech) at me but only if I’m looking at him and if I look away he must then screech-cry until I look back. Then he smiles and wails at the same time while madly bouncing in his bouncer. Does my child sound broken? Maybe he’s broken. Siiigh.

Needless to say any alone time when I’m the only adult in the house doesn’t really translate to me time. Because, on top of him if I do get a spare second I feel like I need to pet the cats or play with the dogs because the poor pets are oft neglected in lieu of the baby. Sorry furkids, he’s just louder than you. Most of the time.

Though I guess sometimes I do have a small window of time I feel like I get just for me. It’s usually about 10 o’clock (like it is right now) and I’ve just managed to get him off the boob without waking him. He’ll actually roll away from me on to his back and I’m able to roll the other way and pull my laptop up to play with. I know almost certainly I’ll have at least an hour before he rolls back towards me to comfort nurse one more time before he goes to sleep. Usually at this point I’m too tired to stay up and so he nurses and we go to sleep. That hour though.. its a good hour..

Slow Cooker Banana Oatmeal


So I LOVE this. I made it two days ago and have still been reheating portions and eating it. It is SO good. Like my other recipes, I’ll post the way I found it with my additions in italics out to the side. I still feel like even with what I added its a healthy meal option for the in morning. Multiple mornings if you’re the only one eating it.

  • 1 cup steel cut oats
  • 1 ripe banana – mashed (2 ripe bananas)
  • ¼ cup chopped walnuts (didn’t have any so skipped this step)
  • 2 cups skim milk (or almond milk) (1 cup reg milk, 1 cup vanilla almond)
  • 2 cups water
  • 2 tablespoons flax seed meal (its good for you but fine if you are out!)
  • 2 teaspoons cinnamon
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla
  • ½ teaspoon nutmeg
  • ½ teaspoon salt
  • banana slices, walnuts or brown sugar – optional garnish
  • 2 Tbls brown sugar

So pretty easy ingredient list right? I didn’t have any walnuts so I skipped those and my second batch I was out of flax so I skipped that. Now here are some tricks to making it taste the best!

Puree the bananas instead of just mash. They mix MUCH better this way. The first time I just used one and didn’t get the flavor I wanted. I also added brown sugar in before I cooked it. I did not add anything else to it once it was done.

Second, instead of mixing this and putting it directly in the crockpot fill the crockpot with some water and put the ingredients in a separate bowl. Place this bowl inside the crockpot. Make sure the water is about halfway up the bowl you placed inside the crockpot. This keeps you from having a crusty bottom to your oatmeal. Trust me. Then just set the crockpot to 8 hours on low and let it cook!

Original recipe courtesy of The Lemon Bowl

P.S. If you’re cost conscience like me get you steel cut oats and almond milk at Aldi! Or really any of the ingredients above that you don’t have. The only thing they may not have is the flax.

How to Put on Make-up with a Baby in 4 Easy Steps

Disclaimer: Some steps may require extra steps.

Step One: Put baby in bouncer/walker/high chair in the other room and go pull out all your makeup.
Step One part a: Pull screaming baby’s walker/bouncer/high chair into the bathroom with you to stop screaming.
Step One part b: Locate baby toy that has fallen somewhere along the trip and give back to baby.
Step One part c: Pick up toy off the ground and give back to baby (repeat 12x)

Step Two: Quickly apply moisturizer while making funny faces at baby. Since you do not need to be accurate with this step use it to entertain your child and be productive.
Step Two part a: Wipe moisturizer off baby’s hands that he got on when he grabbed your face. Lesson learned, do not get too close once foundation is on.
Step Two part b: See Step One part c (repeat 12x)
Step Two part c: Baby has already had enough of your shenanigans and demands to be picked up. Pick up and soothe baby, put back in bouncer/walker/high chair.
Step Two part d: Baby is still mad, must be hungry. Go sit down and feed baby. Baby falls asleep. Don’t want to wake sleeping baby so sit for 30 min while baby takes a nap. Gotta let that moisturizer sink in anyway.

Step Three: Baby is awake, change diaper and put back in bouncer/walker/high chair. Baby starts to squirm, do next steps in under a minute. GO!
Step Three part a: Rub foundation all over face with fingers. No time for $20 makeup brush. Grab lipstick and use as blush. Now look like a clown, who cares! Put on lipstick as it was meant to be used.
Step Three part b: Baby is now wailing. Wave lipstick around in front of baby as a distraction.
Step Three part c: Wipe lipstick off baby.

Step Four: Baby is now screaming. Pick him up and stand in front of mirror until he smiles at his own reflection. Babies love their reflection.
Step Four part a: Prepare to put on mascara. Be careful.
Step Four part b: Grab make-up towelette to wipe off mascara on nose and most of lipstick-blush. Reapply some foundation on these spots. Don’t worry, it doesn’t look that bad.
Step Four part c: Consider doing eyebrows, eyeliner, powder, bronzer, spot correcting, under eye concealer, eye shadow.
Step Four part d: Laugh. Drink coffee. Be happy, you look great!


My body made a baby and it’s never going to be the same.

This is something I am really struggling with right now.

I was blessed with great genes. I’ve never had a flat toned stomach or been without a bit of fluff on my hips and thighs but overall I was “skinny”. I pretty much ate what I wanted and lazed around and managed to never stray above 115 lbs. Sure sometimes after binge-eating half a pizza with my then boyfriend, now husband, my jeans would be tight and I’d have to hit the gym for a few days the next couple of weeks or lay off the junk food. Then all would be right with my world.

Then, pregnancy. The little extra on my tummy was now more than a little and I had stretch marks for days. I have stretch marks on my stomach, which I expected. I have stretch marks on my boobs, which I did not. I have stretch marks on my butt! Which I REALLY did not expect. My butt didn’t even get any bigger (at least my husband swears it didn’t) and yet stretch marks!  Not too much mention my once nicely situated B cups are now not so nice C cups. Who knew that bigger boobs could be a bad thing. We’ll it happens if you’re breastfeeding. Let me tell ya.

What makes all this worse is my husband and I are taking a trip with some friends to Mexico in two short months. I just knew when we planned this trip, before baby was born, that by 6 months in I’d be looking hot and ready to celebrate the first time away from my baby.

What I didn’t count on was breastfeeding making you STARVING all the time and so eating all the time. Also the whole “having a baby” thing really actually takes a little bit of time. Okay, all your time 23/7.. one hour being allowed for showering, eating, house-cleaning, taking care of furchildren, and laundry. Seriously though, trying to even take 45 minutes to go run requires someone to watch baby, having food pumped for baby just in case, and willingness to give up one of the above mentioned things. With my free time I’d prefer to take a solo trip to the grocery store, go get my nails done, or even just drive around in the car ALL BY MYSELF. It’s bliss. Really.

So what this all winds down into is.. I made a baby and my body isn’t the way it used to be. No matter how much I’d love to fit in pre-pregnancy jeans again for right now at least, it ain’t gonna happen. So I’ll embrace my new curves, new softness, and tiger stripes. Cause babycakes, I earned it and earned the right to be happy in it.

Healthier (but still tasty) Lactation Cookies

Okay, so I found a recipe for Lactation cookies and first I made the recipe how I found it. This batch was definitely good, I could sort of taste the Brewer’s Yeast still but it wasn’t too bad. Unfortunately I went through what was supposed to make 42 cookies in about 4 days. So I needed to change up the recipe just a little bit so I’d feel just a bit less guilty. I’ve included the original recipe and just added my changes out to the side in italics. You can make all the changes I did or just some! I’m sure they’d still turn out fine.

1 cup butter (1/2 cup butter, 1/2 cup applesauce)
1 cup sugar (1/2 cup sugar)
1 cup brown sugar
4 tablespoons flax seed
2 eggs
1 teaspoon vanilla
1 teaspoon salt
2 cups flour (1 cup regular flour, 1 cup whole wheat flour)
1 teaspoon baking soda
2 tablespoons brewer’s yeast (I did 3 tbls)
3 cup rolled oats
1 cup chocolate chips (1 1/2 cup semi-sweet chocolate chips)

1. Mix the flour, baking soda, salt, brewer’s yeast and oats in a bowl and set aside.
2. Cream together butter and sugars and applesauce (it will look a little lumpy, that’s okay)
3. Add eggs, vanilla and flax to the butter and sugar mixture and mix well.
4. Slowly add the dry ingredients to the wet, mixing well after each addition.
5. Stir in chocolate chips

Bake at 350 for 10-12 minutes.

The adjusted recipe that I came up with actually came out with fluffier cookies then the ones I made before. Taste-wise was actually about the same.

Good luck!